🪄 Awakening the Magic Within: From Frustration to Fulfillment

I went from corporate marketing to wildlife conservation to leadership consulting before I finally realized that the feeling I had of being unfulfilled and frustrated had nothing to do with my external environment (okay, nothing is an overstatement, but it wasn’t entirely because of it!) and had everything to do with getting honest with myself about what I really wanted in my life and taking steps to make that my full-time reality.

I kept hoping that moving around would lead me to happiness, joy, peace of mind, and endless motivation. And when it didn’t I felt betrayed, resentful, and a little bit vindictive.

I assumed that I was somehow wrong or didn’t fit in with the world. That everyone else in the world was okay with x, y, z because they were too blind to see it was a scam. And I seemed to be the only one who knew it!

And then, with a lot of work and hand holding, I started to realize that maybe my unhappiness had nothing to do with the world around me and everything to do with the world within.

I realized how much fear pervaded every area of my life, how desperately I wanted to get things right and make a good impression and please the people around me. I saw how often I was stuffing down my emotions or fears or doubts, just hoping they would go away if I ignored them long enough.

How long had I been ignoring myself – pretending like me and my mind knew better and would just handle this thing called life on our own, hoping that the rest of us (my spiritual, physical, and emotional self) would just get on board and get on with it.

Spoiler alert: IT DIDN’T!

I tried with force, with pressure, with blackmail and shame, I tried everything I knew how to push forward on a life path I assumed I should be following, to create a life I assumed I should be living, to be successful in a way I assumed was the “right” way. I pushed myself to fit into a mold of life that had nothing to do with who I really was.

Only I didn’t realize that all of the feelings of discontent or anxiety or physical ailments were actually warning signs, red flags going off to sound the alarms that something wasn’t right and we desperately needed to course correct. I had no idea that was even a thing.

The message didn’t get through to me because I was stubborn and determined to keep pushing forward. The message also didn’t get through because I had never been taught another way to move forward. I didn’t have the family background or the mentors or teachers in my circle of influence that could show me a different possibility for living life. I only had the model I had learned and honed over 30+ years.

And then, suddenly, the model fell away as I came to realize, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I could not move forward as I had been. That nothing but heartache lay ahead if I tried to push myself any further in a direction I didn’t want to go, pretending to buy in to work that didn’t light me up, in a relationship that didn’t make me feel safe or particularly loved.

And so, I gave it all up. The job, the relationship, the friends, the safety, security, and stability of my home. I knew that to live a life I truly loved, I had to let everything I had ever known before go. And while I didn’t fully understand this on a conscious cognitive level, the answer within was crystal clear.

And as I left my home in Berlin, and my guaranteed paycheck to start The Courage Factory as a fledgling entrepreneur and coach-in-training, I was filled with nothing but hope and self-belief that I could make this work. I had no idea how, but I was open to the doors that would open on the road ahead.

And while I thought my journey would lead me to a career I loved and lots of financial success, I had no idea that an entire world of spirituality and healing would rush forth to greet me on this new path and help me see my own purpose in life just a bit more clearly.

So many of the leaders I support have this same struggle. They have “made it” – on paper. Their families are proud. Their partners are proud, and may even depend on them. They have arrived at levels of success they had only dreamed of – and despite having achieved everything they set out to, forging ahead and working hard, it doesn’t feel like they hoped it would.

They reach that next level and wonder, “Is this it? Is this all there is to life?” and feel defeated that so much hard work could not bring them the sense of fulfillment and joy and contentment that they crave.

And without knowing how to voice that deeply hidden fear – or with whom they can share their shame or guilt at having so much and still being unsatisfied – they let it build up inside. They don’t have the teachers or the mentors or the friends who can shine a light on another way forward. They may not have parents or partners who are willing to consider another paradigm for living a good life. And so they don’t know where to turn.

And when our paths do finally cross, they often have the realization that they had been holding their breath – waiting and hoping for an answer.

There is an entire universe out there that we don’t understand, and while we each have access to it – most of us have never learned how to tap in and get what we need. All of the answers we desire lay within, all of the creative possibilities for what we can do in our life lay within, and yet so many of us are completely blind to this world.

It is my mission to wake up as many people as possible to the magic that is within and around them. To help them see the myriad ways forward that they can find profound healing and inner peace. I am determined to help people who, just like me, never knew there was another way to live life that felt…better.

This has been the motivation for me to dive into a new project, one that started as a simple thought in my mind last August and never lost its hold on me. So for the last 11 months the idea has been growing and changing shape and will soon come into the world as a podcast! The first episodes are already recorded, and interviews continue with the most incredible healers and holistic practitioners I've ever met. Stay tuned to learn the incredible ways that we can transform our lives and find that rich and deep fulfillment and purpose that so many of us are searching for today.

Can't wait for you to listen!

Amanda

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